Leokid’s Life

Bismi Rabbial Azimi wa Bihamdih

What’s more beautiful than a friendship? Before this i totally believed that love is the most beautiful thing in the world. I believed that love always lasts forever. But somehow, by Allah’s will, recently, i was exposed to something reality. Something that reflects new perspective of relationship to me. Something that realizes me that love is never the best thing in the world, yet friendship can always have the strength to pulls the ‘love’ away from somebody.

The incident that realizes me was unplanned, as it happens with Allah’s qada and qadar, as if He wanted to show me His justification and justice about the relationship among human He created.

I’ve never thought that i would stumble upon one old friend. We havent part for long, but the distance and gap were existed for a few years. The gap that existed because of something ‘pure’ : love. Yeah, i stumbled upon a girl whom i once loved, back in few years ago. I cannot blame love and hatred as the cause of my heart-breaking moment with her, it was my fault unintentionally. But somehow it just some kind of ironic, we spent some time together as if we are loving couples, yet realizing that we were not, realizing that each of us had separated into two different paths and now loving someone else.

It’s never my intention to bring back old memories with hope that she will accept me back and dump her current boy, but its really touching knowing that someone who once being hated by me, someone whom i once disappointed of breaking my heart, accepted me as a friend! But the most important is, she is the first girl i’d ever met, who really appreciated all the thing’s i’ve done to her. She’s the kindest person i’d ever met, the willingness to apologize and to accept apology, the unprejudice thought and attitutde, and only Allah know how grateful i am to her, for being among my best friends, who willing to share a bit of happiness, introducing me to the value of happiness in my life.

It’s the first time i’d ever tasted what ‘happiness’ is.

For all my life, I’m all buffeted with tears and sorrow, pain and disappointment, and thanx to her, thanx to ‘you’, for the first time in my life, perhaps for the last time, me finally know what ‘happiness’ is.

Happiness is the feeling of

care and being cared

appreciate and being appreciated

I learned something from u, that is,

i dont need love and need not to be loved in order to cheer a cup of happiness in my life.

[thanx for everything!]

***My Heart Is Pink***

In relationships, I like to play innocent - even though I am not.
Each time I fall in love, it’s like falling for the first time.

My flirting style: Coy

My lucky first date: Picnic in the park

My dream lover: Is both caring and dominant

What I bring to relationships: Romance

What Color Heart Do You Have?
http://www.blogthings.com/whatcolorheartdoyouhavequiz/

Footnote: i’ve learned my first guitar chord! it’s "Bedroom Window" from Nice Stupid Playground. Hak2. Soo excited!

[Before reading this post, shall we recite ummul kitab in praising Him for His power that makes all dreams come true. Al Fatihah]

Bismillah Ar-Rahman Ar-Rahim

Praise as much praisal to Lord, for his undeniable power to make one’s dream, to be exact, my dream, comes true! I never asked for this kind of success, i just pray so that i’ll get enough result just to continue my study. However, it is true that He is Ar-Rahman, giving me such glory and success even i couldnt believe it.                                 

Somebody asked me, how does it feel to grab this kind of glory and success. And i couldnt say anything but "Puas" (satisfied!). Its the best result i could achieve! I cannot get better than this, so its just a feeling that all hardship, tears of pain, and such had payback. Syukur Alhamdulillah.

However, i’m kinda feel sorry to my other friends who unable to achieve whatever wishes the want. Just one advice to them, NEVER GIVE UP! You could make it further, its just a matter of time! You have the ability to become a doctor like me (insyaAllah), an engineer, or whatever you want to be, its just a longer path. As long as there is sun, you can always feel the heat. As long as you want it, just make sure that you have the ‘heat‘ and passion to pursue it! It will come true, insyaAllah.

***My 2005 Song Is***

MR.BRIGHTSIDE by The Killers

"It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss"

Let’s just say you’re happy to be done with 2005!

***My Love Life Secrets Are***

Looking back on your life, you will only have one true love.

You’re a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn’t?

It’s important to you that your lover is very attractive. You like to have someone to show off.

In fights, you love to debate and defend yourself. You logic prevails - or at least you’d like to think so.

Getting over a break-up doesn’t take long. Easy come, easy go.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed
http://www.blogthings.com/yourlovelifesecretsrevealedquiz/

Praise to Lord, as this is His power to make it..

Hey!! Everybody gotta click on this link!!

http://www.bharian.com.my/m/BHarian/Sunday/Remaja/20060304135032/Article/

Hahaha..it’s one of my broher’s work..to buffet me with fame and glamorousity.. which i never once prayed for it. However, its quite touching to know that all my hardwork had paid.. There’s a friend of mine who told me that i dont have to lower my head about this, it is something i deserve for it. I have the right to brag about it, as it is my success that allow this to happen.

However, as from my point of view, i dont think i want to brag about it. I assume this as a gift from Allah, and therefore He can always take it away anytime He want.

And yet, this glamorousity had never dim the light of nervousity in myself. The SPM Result Fever is a new dilemma in my life, the heat is so scorching yet i can’t find myself time to stay calm, and concentrate on studying! Argh!!Can’t wait till the pandemic is over!!

Just now i went to JPA’s website and book a pin number. While some people saying that my place in tertiary education has been comformed, i still need this JPA Scholarship as an ‘insurance‘ for myself, just in case sumthing bad happen. ArghH..dun know what will the future be?!

Que Sera, Sera,

Whatever will be, will be,

The future’s not our’s to see..

Que Sera..Sera…

***I Am 78% Addicted to Love***
Might as well face it, you’re very addicted to love.
But you’re not really getting the deep love you seek.
Short lived, dramatic relationships are more your style.
Let go of needing someone, and you may find someone you actually want.

Are You Addicted to Love?
http://www.blogthings.com/areyouaddictedtolovequiz/

with the glory of Allah, thy who created the world, with thy name i shall begin this

Gdday, everyone! Everybody here in the INTEC (the one in Russian Program, of course) were now in blue faces, as well as sweating without causes and having regularly nightmare nightly or even daily! Hak2! Its all the SPM Result blues.. Although the result will only be out by 13th March, the shivers can already being to feel to us ryt now! Maybe there are somebody out there saying with envy that we are already begun our tertiary education yet we dont have to worry about SPM anymore but i oughta tell this, that this SPM result meant MUCH BIGGER to us rather than those who now enjoying cooking in the KFC or Kenny Roger’s.

Why? Yeah, its a term with our sponsor, MARA that if we are UNABLE to achieve these certain criteria in our SPM :

• A2 in Physics, Biology, Chemistry, Add Maths and Maths
• B3 in Bahasa Melayu and English

We are going to be smack out of these INTEC UiTM!! And thats truly a horror to us, if that happen.

Again, i would ask everybody who read this post, PLEASE, PRAY FOR US!! Pray for our success so that our ambition to serve to our beloved Malaysian, comes true one day!

I know it might be late now for praying, as the result is already ready to be published, however, with His power, even the impossible can be done by Him.

O Allah, there’s only ONE more obstacle to be faced, ONE more barrier to be break, ONE more condition to be fulfilled, and yet Thy the only one who could make it happen, and the One who know what’s the best for us…

.: How Do People See Me? :.

***Slow and Steady***

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy.

They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder.

It’d really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment.

They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

How Do People See You?
http://www.blogthings.com/howdopeopleseeyouquiz/