Leokid’s Life

Bismi Allah Ar-Rahman

Huargh~!! It’s complicated! It’s boring! It’s unique! It’s my new language, which is the Russian Language! Huhaha! It’s kinda difficult because it doesnt use our ordinary alpahbet, instead it uses the CYRILLIC alphabet! Cyrillic alphabet consists of 33 characters, and only 5 of them are similar with English/Malay ordinary alphabet. To worsen it, our Russian Lecturer, Madam Natasha Mikhailovna, speak "very little English"! We can hardly understand what she is trying to tell us, and she also could hardly understand whether we are understand or not! Its kinda funny isnt it!

Yesterday, we are being visited by a lecturer from Volgograd State Medical Academy. She (Dr. Olga) wanted to share some experiences and advices with us. His English, from my opinion, is perfect as she spoke with the Spanish Slanga. When she spoke, i just totally mesmerized (not with her beauty!) with her fluentness is speaking English. However, i was a bit disappointed as some of my friends did make fun of her tone. They just could’nt get it, i assumed. Same as for my Physics lecturer, Mr. Shaik Dawood, who originated from Pakistan, (i think), whom spoke in English-(indian style). My friends, esp the boys make fun of him without any respect of him being our lecturer, our teacher. And that disappointed me a bit.

Recently while i was on the net, i found a cool website, the blogthings.com. This site, provided lots of MCQ’s and subjectives test, about various topic. I decided to post out some results i had gain from the test. Check it out!

***My Five Variable Love Profile***

Propensity for Monogamy:

Your propensity for monogamy is high.
You find it easy to be devoted and loyal to one person.
And in return, you expect the same from who you love.
Any sign of straying, and you’ll end things.

Experience Level:

Your experience level is medium.
You probably have had a couple significant loves.
And you may have even had your heart broken.
But you haven’t really dated a wide variety of people.

Dominance:

Your dominance is medium.
You tend to be the one with more power.
You aren’t a total control freak in relationships..
But of course you don’t mind getting you way!

Cynicism:

Your cynicism is low.
You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance.
No matter how many times you’ve been hurt - you’re never bitter.
You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate.
And if you haven’t found true love yet, you know you will soon.

Independence:

Your independence is medium.
In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time."
You usually find it easy to be part of a couple.
But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered.

The Five Variable Love Test
http://www.blogthings.com/thefivevariablelovetest/

a poem i recite, with guidance from Allah, and He who makes this true

Dengan ketentuan-Nya
Aku masih di sini
Masih memikul tanggungjawab
serta amanah yang telah diberikan
untuk meneruskan perjuangan sebagai
khalifah dalam mencari keredhaan-Nya
apakah itu PERJUANGAN?
Adakah tembak menembak sesama kita untuk menunjukkan
kekuatan?
Adakah saling bersaing sesama kita sebagai hamba yang
hina ini demi memperolehi satu kemenangan satu keangkuhan
sehingga berani mengatakan bahawa dunia ini dialah yang punya?

BUKAN itu semua adalah palsu belaka!
Kita telah diperintahkan oleh-Nya untuk mencari ilmu
Ilmu yang diredhai-Nya
Ilmu yang disukai-Nya
Ilmu yang boleh memberikan kita kebahagian
di dunia dan di akhirat
Bukan ilmu yang dimurkai-Nya
Bukan ilmu yang merosakkan

Ingatlah wahai sahabatku
Aku berdiri pada hari ini bukanlah untuk bercerita kosong
Aku berdiri di pagi ini bukanlah untuk mencari publisiti murahan
Aku berdiri pagi di hadapan kamu bukanlah untuk menunjuk akan kehebatanku
Kerana semua ini adalah daripada kehendak-Nya
Kerana semua ini adalah daripada ketentuan-Nya
Dan yang paling utama
Aku berdiri sebagai hamba-Nya yang
Sentiasa mendambakan
Sentiasa mengharapkan
Sentiasa meminta
Akan kasih dan sayang daripada-Nya

Aku senantiasa bermimpi
Dengan ilmu yang aku ada aku memperolehi kejayaan
Dengan ilmu yang aku ada aku merasakan aku ini pandai
Dengan ilmu yang aku ada aku memperolehi kebahagian
Dengan ilmu yang aku ada maka cerahlah masa depanku
Tetapi masih adakah di antara kita yang masih terfikir
Ilmu yang kita perolehi adakah mendapat keredhaan daripada-Nya
kita senantiasa melakukan kesalahan
kita senantiasa melakukan dosa
Semasa kita dalam keadaan sedar ataupun tidak

Oh! Tuhan
Ampunkanlah dosa-dosaku
Terimalah segala amalan dan I’badahku
Aku ini hamba-Mu yang hina
Senantiasa terjerumus dalam lubang penuh penderitaan
Bagaimanakah keadaan ku nanti tika berhadapan dengan-Mu?
Berkatilah segala ilmu yang telah ku pelajari daripada-Mu
Semoga aku berjaya di dunia dan di akhirat
Semoga aku berjaya menjadi khalifah yang bertanggungjawab
Semoga aku berjaya memikul segala amanahku dengan baik
Semoga aku senantiasa menghargai jasa
Kedua ibu bapa ku
Guru-guru yang telah mendidikku
Sahabat rakan seperjuangan yang senantiasa bersamaku
Dan akhirnya,
Semoga aku menang dalam PERJUANGAN ku
Mencari keredhaan daripada-Mu

Insya Allah…

3.200 . O ye who believe! Endure , outdo all others in endurance , be ready , and observe your duty to Allah , in order that ye may succeed .

In the name of Allah, with lots of praises to Him..

Holla everyone.. its been a fortnight i’ve been here in the Shah Alam and this fortnight have been kinda bz to me. Lots of works start to dump in, assignments are beginning to pile up and lectures and lectures are driving me out of insanity, bit by bit!

I certainly would agree that this culture shock i am facing is something new that beyond my xpectations. Seeing other struggling easily as if they’ve used to it making me shivers, realizing that i’m just a small dot in a drop of ink!

Well…guess that my main probs living here is the $$$!! Every single cent needs to be budget and saves for tomorrow’s use! Huh..

I dont believe that i could eventually fall in love, couples, and break up,…in a week!! Huh!! Now i’m REALLY fed up wif girls, and living 18 years had taught me that all girls are SAME! They just dun appreciate anything a man would done for them, and even we devoted our heart and willing to sacrifice for them, they would just feel like "Ah, its okay.. sapa suruh dia wat camni? lantak le kat dia…belambak lagi guys out there yg better than dia…"

Believe me, i’ve experienced this.

73.8 . So remember the name of thy Lord and devote thyself with a complete devotion

May Allah and His blessing with us..

Ahaks! It’s my first night in the INTEC, or specifically, KOLEJ CEMARA..!! It was quite blurry, as my feeling was fill with all the mix and stuffs that even i dont know how to xplain it!

Huh, firstly, the accomodation is SO GREAT! An 4-person apartment, complete with studytable, computertable and sofa for each person, a living room, a bathroom and toilets (which will be shared by 4 of us), the verandah, living here is much more beyond my expectations! Compared to the PDRM (which i thought was the best before), Kolej CEMARA is much,much better!

We, 47 Russian Program students, came from various mRSMs’ and state’s. There are some of my friends even from Sabah! (3 of them). Being gathered here, had realize myself that there are still lots of people who are cleverer than me in this world…and to feel such emotion had inspired me much as well as motivating me enthusiastically to further my study in Russia!

Hurm…i once receive a suggestion by a friend of mine who concern about my personal life, which is to find a new gurl here in INTEC, and i assume that suggestion was a ‘never-to-be-working’ one. I dun know why, despite my glory here in intec, i still sad because no matter what i do, i still enjoying my success alone, lonely..

4.13 . These are the limits ( imposed by ) Allah . Whoso obeyeth Allah and His messenger , He will make him enter Gardens underneath which rivers flow , where such will dwell for ever . That will be the great success

with Allah, i start, may His Glory never gloom..

Gdday, to all my friends. Today saturday, 4th feb 2006, and there’s just another 2 days before i started my life as a student of UiTM! If people long time ago always said to their children bout getting themselves into a university, i did achieved what my parents have been praying since i was born! I hope this glory, my ‘rezeki’, would stay with me till the end of my life.. 6 months in INTEC and then 6 years in Russia, after that 6 years again of housemanship as a doctor, serving to malaysians! It not about bragging, noble job, high salary, or even professional job as a doctor, but all i did is just to prove that i am SOMEBODY..and i am capable to be ANYBODY! Truthfully, my objective is : to get all girls that rejected me before this, for them to regret because they have ‘kindly’ set aside a guy who once loved them, and suddenly became a guy who able to provide everything!

I dont know why more achievements i grabbed, the more problems come after me! After one another, one by one, and yet all this probs had taught me well about the reality of life..

After all bad incidents happen to me, i could bear myself, convinced to say that now i have lost my faith to girls, lost my trust and i find myself hardly to fell in love again.. i dun know why.. Some people said that i am a perfectionist, who can succeed in every aspects of my life, but they just didnt know that i am a damn loser in this aspect of "love"..

30.60 . So have patience ( O Muhammad ) ! Allah ‘ s promise is the very truth , and let not those who have no certainty make thee impatient .